Lost of spirit

Had a long time being quit from blog...
Always think about blog but nvr update...

It just like ..lost a part of memory when looking foward the past time.


february,march, and now April.

march I get my spm result.
6as 4b+
kinda dissappointed.

but I deserve it since I don't really work hard in this stupid spm but yea...
disappointed for additional math and bookkeping .


thinking about appeal when I was having my standard exam on next day after took spm result.

life is busy.always


but it turn like lost of spirit now.
don't feel like wanna do anything when free...
just hope like I was a tree.
Not a human being,

no future, no trash of complicating question in mind.
LOST .
Even in my work...

felt lost about all of my thing.
I lost my art skill, I lost my creativity, I lost my ability, I lose my mind, I lose of control.



it is too tired for human being
emo everyday?




btw, while I was dilemma into the dump of problems,
I did well in my standard exam accidentally.
No reason.
Accident.





Visit nuffnang page today and submit some request for some premier screening.
do really hope I could step out from home...
I am too sick now

past, now ,future.

i did study hard in my past life.

i working hard in my work now .

i will be having nice life soon ?

oh. future. oh . mature. 0h childhood

人本来就不应该拥有太多

刚丢了一个弄到一半的壳。

最近的压力。。。
说不出了。。。。


其实根本没有必要弄得自己那么累。。。
我拥有的真的太多了。。。



真的很想什么都放弃掉。。
真的很想好好的当学生　花爸妈的钱，每天沉浸在书海。多久没有看书？
我真的忘了。。

很累。。
很累。。

大哭了一场感觉好了点。
刚问了主席辞掉‘网页股’这个职位

这个职位说真的，我很喜欢。
改造部落格是我最爱做的事情。


而且已经想好所有概念。
春天是缎带。　

缎带柔而有力，高雅而且很有质感。
每一种材质的缎带就好像拥有独有的个性。

缎带同时也是抗乳癌的ｓｉｇｎａｔｕｒｅ之一。
正面的讯息是我最想表达的。


加上空中跃的剪影。


夏天的主题是糖果色。

糖果色每年春夏主打色，
永不退潮，活力和维他命的色调　　夏天。



秋天是土色系。
一大地色系落叶为主体。加入扑克牌元素。


冬天是英格伦风格。。




可是。。。我好像只能想到，做不到。



我真的。。。。累了

last

lost of confidence because of a comment.
why cant be more positive ?!
useless me .

cny ?

不知不觉已经年初二了！　





2012 is a special year for me .
no hairdo, no manicure , no pedicure, no make up , no acce,no contact lens.
PURE. ^^

all of them are EX-cloth mix and match :)

except for a cheongsam.
which almost made my purse burnt ／．＼

rm260 . worth ?

btw...it is sooo longg-.-
wore a 5inch heels to match it ...exhausted .

so lazy to get the photo with heels...

look like a giant wuth the freaking high heel@@








2nd day of CNY
outfit :

圆顶礼帽 by nondezcript.
transparent chiffon trouser ---times square.
violet skinny jeans-----from sista jazz
漆皮牛津及踝短靴-----no name
hermes birkin fake print bag----from the mines.


all old stuff -.-





no mood to take tons of pictures....
just feel like wanna RELAX myself .



<3 family ....

tomorrow family + working day.............
worryyiinngg....
stress hello.

the moment.

the moment i touched .
after that , all of then is end.

this is me ?
no feel. no blood. no tears.

2012 . life oh life .

2011 gone !

sweetie 17' gone. gonna be 18' this year
(although i still always get asked 'are u gonna seating for PMR ?')


a lot of friend leave, they dont want to continue S.M.3
s.m.3 just for UEC.

but i did.
i stay at CHKL .for UEC.
idk if i will continue my education oversea or what BUT
one more cert make more chance.


PLUS,
i dont really feel that i am ready to face this world .
this ...complicated world .
ppl cheating, ppl blaming.


and...
i dont think that my current work will really be my main work.
i still need a proper job first.

I LOVE MY current work so much!
but ...
it make people so tired.


always feel like wanna give up since it is too hard.
takes too long time .
sometimes i work until feel like wanna vomit.headache.dizzy.
*it cause me cant dance as well . i cant balance my body ...too tired till cant balance.
and so much more..


SO....
so i plan to stop all the work on march
or maybe will just reduce the orders.

only limited 3 units a month?



gosh...just let it be .





life is still going on.=~=